Still Christmas

It's still Christmas, everybody! It won't be over for a few more days yet.
So far, this really has been one of my most joyful Christmases ever. In addition to the very many blessings I have been showered with, I have been so overwhelmed with the way things are developing with FC. The best things we have to wait for, I guess,which is why this has been in the works for over a year now. But well worth it! I honestly have never met anyone who made me this happy all the time. I can't wait for the day when you all can meet him face to face...perhaps at the wedding? :) Actually, there's a chance the wedding would be held overseas for a number of reasons. But you all could fly over anyways! Yes, things are going very well with FC and I, and I can't express my excitement accurately! He is literally a dream come true for me. Silly as this sounds, as a kid I made up an imaginary friend; when I met FC, I knew he "reminded" me of someone. He looks just like my pretend pal! He laughs at me, but it's true nonetheless.
Now comes the time for confession. Not the Sacrament, that's another day! But I have to tell someone so I might as well put this on my blog. Some days ago, I was dwelling on FC and I as usual, and then in a dark moment I concluded that NO ONE is as pure and sweet as him, so he must he feigning something (I don't know what I was thinking.) So, I made up my mind to "test" him. I know this is a childish antic, but I was feeling very childish all of a sudden. So, I went online and registered as a member of this environmental site FC is on. Then, through the site, I contacted him with another name. I pretended to be a girl who had the same interests and who wanted to stay in contact via the site. I felt horrible doing it, as if I were throwing mud all over a beautiful painting. But I did it anyway and waited. I figured if FC was a creep, he'd write "her" back and my intention was to have the girl act "cute" and get him to act cute back like he does with me. Then, in my mind, if he were as pure as he seems, he'd just not write back at all. Well, FC surprised even me on this one.
The very next day, I saw him online. He brought up the email to me as soon as he got it.
"I got an odd email from that site," he stated. Then he copied the text of the message and let me see it. Imagine my shock and embarrassment--I had to re-read the stupid words I'd mailed him! Then, FC explained that he was not going to write back because he is focused on me and doesn't have any desire to speak with any other girls, especially over the internet. My jaw just dropped. I didn't know what to say. I guess there's a possibility he knows it was me, just by intuition, but he never accused me and we moved on. One day I'll tell him openly, I know he'll understand, but for now I've learned my lesson: sometimes things that seem too good to be true are true after all.
Also, I am stupid, stupid, stupid and need to put childish things behind me!