Three's Company

It's been a while so all of you have probably forgotten my blog, but I'll write anyways. This time it's juicy. OK, remember how a long time ago FC introduced me to his brother IK? Well, I hated it because I thought it meant FC was trying to pass me off! (This was before FC and I were together.) Also, IK was horribly annoying. It's a long story, but we fought ALL the time. Every conversation with him was an argument. Then, a few months ago, he and I started talking again and YIKES!--it was awesome. We got along famously, and I couldn't see why I'd ever disliked him. He's intelligent (he has to be, he's a doctor--otherwise, people DIE! ha ha), funny (he said God is American, I said NO! He said, okay, He's Nigerian, from the little tiny village I'm from! Okay, wait, let's have a pillow fight about it), creative (he's always on some crazy new business adventure. Right now I think he's selling crude oil with some partners in Texas), passionate (which is probably why when I like him, I like him and when I don't, I really don't), spiritual (Catholic and real about it!), etc. A great conversationalist. We could talk all night. Plus, he's a little sassy and a little frisky in a harmless way. Beautiful. Anyways, this is obviously a problem. We finally had to talk about "what this means" and "how will this affect FC" and "what do we feel" etc. He's confessed his feelings for me. I don't have the slightest clue what to think about him. I haven't talked to FC about it yet. Then, to make matters worse, IK introduced me a few days ago to his friend BC. Wouldn't you know it but BC and I hit it off! We talked on the phone for a long time, then BC started emailing me. These are long, detailed, wonderful emails. The man is attentive, devout, and he actually LISTENS when I talk to him. Weird in a man. He's also very straightforward and honest, like IK. So then BC and I had to ask IK if it was all right that we talk like this. How crazy is this? So now basically, I have three Nigerians that I'm wondering about, one of which I'm actually with-with. But FC is still having visa problems, and I don't know how serious things can be from a distance any longer. Trouble in Paradise? Perhaps. Today I got an email from IK saying how he wants this whole problem solved. He doesn't want to hurt FC any more than I do, but he also really really likes me. (On the phone the other day he cried and said he loved me. I told him he doesn't know that yet, but still, there's something going on with him.) The whole thing is causing me lack of sleep. Then today I had to email IK back and ask permission to keep in touch with BC. BC's attitude is similiar to IK's concerning FC: BC doesn't want to step on IK's toes, but he also feels a connection with me, as I do him. It's very rare I can find any men who 1) have a real career 2)are interesting 3) are seriously Catholic, and love discussing the Faith. Now I've found 3 of them--good? It's sorta good until I realize I need to focus on one! And I am: FC. I won't sing his praises since I constantly do anyways; suffice it to say: he's my baby. But what does all this other stuff MEAN!?